All I Never Thought I Could Be

By Alena Thalput

Fallen so far

Upon the ashes

Of mountainous roller coasters

Swinging their way

Across the night sky

Screeching to a halt

Glaring into my eyes,

Uncertainty heaving in my chest.

Again and again

The cycle continues

Banging the frothing memories

Seeping under the doorway

Raging in the darkness

Red eyes

Glowing against


Pouring from my pores.

Dreams exploding from my hands

Seeking shelter

From the Terror

As pen bends against paper

And the voices

Push their doubts

Into my skull

Hammering the truth of

All I never thought I could be.